Seek Ye First

Matthew 6:28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

These words pierce through me today. See, last night was a bit of a sleepless night. I was consumed by fear. Fear that our whole plan would leave us flat on our face. Fear that God would not provide in my timing or to my standards. Fear is the opposite of faith and yesterday, my faith was smaller than a mustard seed. As I lay awake last night, with a knot in my stomach, the Lord gently spoke to me and reminded me of these verses that seek to seek him first and that everything else will be added unto us. He reminded me to chase eternal riches and not earthly ones. Things I knew before but I needed a stark reminder of yesterday. Today I am committed to making an eternal difference by loving people instead of selfishly seeking my own earthly prosperity with all my being. It's tough to admit to you that my faith falters even on this romanticized journey where we all out trust God. But, it's truth and moreover, it's human. I would prefer just to share our victories with you and never our times of difficulties, but that is not real. If you intend to be sold out for God and take an unconvential journey with Him, be ready to have moments of fear. The important thing is to allow the Holy Spirit to speak to those fears and replace them with faith.